Down
Dec. 11th, 2009 | 11:48 pm
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It wasn't as good as I had hoped it'd be. In fact, the one with the guys was more enticing. If not, it was down right demoralizing, disconnected and close to being disastrous. I guess maybe it's just me. Or maybe it's just us, all segregated and out of place. But I like Coach he is so funny :) The next one might be better.
There are so many things I'd like to do. But I can't clear my head for a clear way.
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Dec. 10th, 2009 | 09:29 pm
You started it, you end it. I am cold and unbothered, heartless and scary.
Stick and stones may break my bones, but your words will never touch me.
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Sometimes I forget what it's like to be really fake, to hide your agenda and to execute the daylights out of yourself. I have been too transparent. It's not good. I don't like it, I don't like to be readable.
Anyway training starts tomorrow, I can't wait to play!! Omg I will be laughing at myself no kidding. These few days I haven't been studying successfully :( It feels feel without any dancing, I keep listening to the songs and bobbing my head along with them. I feel so obsessed with my weight I can just strangle myself. I'm gna be fat and disgusting by January GAH. Okay, I am gna start swimming and running.
I realized my body takes months to recover from a wound/cut/bruise. It's highly annoying, I think it's because I don't take in enough nutrients. Irregular meals, skipped meals, small meals, close-to-non-existent meals.
Yeah no wonder.
OKAY BYE. I am not Playing tonight.
Stick and stones may break my bones, but your words will never touch me.
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Sometimes I forget what it's like to be really fake, to hide your agenda and to execute the daylights out of yourself. I have been too transparent. It's not good. I don't like it, I don't like to be readable.
Anyway training starts tomorrow, I can't wait to play!! Omg I will be laughing at myself no kidding. These few days I haven't been studying successfully :( It feels feel without any dancing, I keep listening to the songs and bobbing my head along with them. I feel so obsessed with my weight I can just strangle myself. I'm gna be fat and disgusting by January GAH. Okay, I am gna start swimming and running.
I realized my body takes months to recover from a wound/cut/bruise. It's highly annoying, I think it's because I don't take in enough nutrients. Irregular meals, skipped meals, small meals, close-to-non-existent meals.
Yeah no wonder.
OKAY BYE. I am not Playing tonight.
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Girl, why you teasing me?
Dec. 8th, 2009 | 09:40 pm
mood: 
numb
1. Day 2 and I'm not dying just yet.
2. I'm thinking of getting a new livejournal or stick to my Xanga.
3. Studying was unproductive despite the fact that I was abandoned :(
4. Char b came with food for me, so sweet hor.
5. Met V at our new haunt and I (L) the surroundings.
6. Yay I am gna see my Baby for dinner tomorrow!
7. And Mel is leaving on Friday :(
8. But K is coming back on Sat hurray.
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How much do you think about me?
2. I'm thinking of getting a new livejournal or stick to my Xanga.
3. Studying was unproductive despite the fact that I was abandoned :(
4. Char b came with food for me, so sweet hor.
5. Met V at our new haunt and I (L) the surroundings.
6. Yay I am gna see my Baby for dinner tomorrow!
7. And Mel is leaving on Friday :(
8. But K is coming back on Sat hurray.
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How much do you think about me?
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Fantasy
Dec. 7th, 2009 | 11:57 pm
I am back @ my Daddy's. I don't know what to say I am completely numb. Throw me around, it doesn't hurt or matter anymore.
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LOVE MY EYEBROWS RIGHT HAHAHAHA
Awesome threesome ^^ Plus one later on KE KE KE
HAHA I don't know why I look so funny. None of the hiphop pics, realized that I didn't take any.
I had a rough day. Good night :)
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LOVE MY EYEBROWS RIGHT HAHAHAHA
Awesome threesome ^^ Plus one later on KE KE KE
HAHA I don't know why I look so funny. None of the hiphop pics, realized that I didn't take any.
I had a rough day. Good night :)
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Mixed.
Dec. 2nd, 2009 | 12:44 am
mood: 
exhausted
So disappointed in myself, and everything.
I guess this is prolly the last thing I have. It's within my control, and I still have time. It doesn't lie in anyone else's hands, and this time, for a change, I get to decide how I want to feel about it, how I don't abandon this and how I know it won't leave me. At least I know this time I am stuck with it. And it is up to me to prove myself right or wrong. It's the last change I have to feel good about myself. The last thing I own.
I guess this is prolly the last thing I have. It's within my control, and I still have time. It doesn't lie in anyone else's hands, and this time, for a change, I get to decide how I want to feel about it, how I don't abandon this and how I know it won't leave me. At least I know this time I am stuck with it. And it is up to me to prove myself right or wrong. It's the last change I have to feel good about myself. The last thing I own.
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Everyone is only out to play
Nov. 30th, 2009 | 12:18 am
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I had fun at Terminal 3 today, including the parts when Ardella just refused to get off my nerves. She keeps singing the song "Tik tok" and I HATE THAT SONG! So annoyingly funny HAHAH. Not forgetting me and Jing going up the coming down travelator (We were too lazy to take the lift) and laughing non stop. Oh well hope tomorrow will be a good day.
It will never be the same anymore.
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1 2 3
Nov. 28th, 2009 | 12:40 am
mood: tired
Finally bought something I might actually like after so long! Went to meet Jing and M and V. Went food hunting HAHA I am gna be fatter man. As usual we left the unglam shots to be taken at the end of our time together.
KE KE KE
Omg I just realized I see Jing EVERY DAY. She's gna get soooo sick of me HAHAHAH.
It passes and freezes.
KE KE KE
Omg I just realized I see Jing EVERY DAY. She's gna get soooo sick of me HAHAHAH.
It passes and freezes.
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Last day of school
Nov. 27th, 2009 | 11:37 am
mood: 
indifferent
JINGZZZ :)
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My life is so aimless >:(
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Excitement
Nov. 25th, 2009 | 11:26 pm
mood: very satisfied
Truth is, how can you miss someone you don't even spend time in the first place with?
I wouldn't.
You got me going high.
I wouldn't.
You got me going high.
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Nightwalks
Nov. 25th, 2009 | 09:15 am
mood: very excited
Because he takes pleasure in her, because his pleasure is unfailing, an affection has grown up in him for her. To some degree, he believes, this affection is reciprocated. Affection may not be love, although it can very often be mistook for it, but it is at least it's cousin. Call him selfish, but it is only true that nothing is fair in love or war.
She on the other hand, does not realize the seriousness of the situation until she has one foot deep in the grave. Love is a toy she owns but does not dare to play with. She, while following his actions as she is led by, believes that she is better off not knowing his inhibitions. Perhaps if she placed her heart somewhere else, it would be cared for unduly. And until then, she chooses to live religiously in the facades they have created.
!Sugar rush
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I remember the way you taste
Nov. 23rd, 2009 | 10:50 pm
music: Two is better than one - Boys Like Girls
Sometimes I can be so confusing. I know what I want but I don't know how to put it. I wish someone knew me better than I know myself. Wishy washy depreciation.
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Sigh and my mother upsets me.
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Nov. 22nd, 2009 | 10:11 pm
Have you guys checked out Victoria Secret's 2010? The models are so disappointing. We are talking underwear here, who gives a damn about how skinny you are? VS placed Anja and Chanel in it. I love them, but they are so far from lingerie models. They're just too skinny with no curves at all. Ah skeletal girls scare me. I like skinny but this is lingerie man. I want sexy, not scrawny. The theme's a little off too. Man I miss the Justin Timberlake VS Show.
Dance is less than 2 weeks away and I realized quite a lot of people are coming to watch it. I'm crossing my fingers things will go right. I hate disappointments and I hate more to disappoint.
I don't know why I'm looking forward to moving forward.
Ciao.
Hold your liqour, hold your tongue.
Dance is less than 2 weeks away and I realized quite a lot of people are coming to watch it. I'm crossing my fingers things will go right. I hate disappointments and I hate more to disappoint.
I don't know why I'm looking forward to moving forward.
Ciao.
Hold your liqour, hold your tongue.
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Rollercoasterzzz
Nov. 21st, 2009 | 12:31 am
mood: 
silly
music: It isn't me - The Color Fred
I am so tired I tried to plug my ipod plug into my handphone :|
Anyway another eventful day :) I found a 7things (or people) to be happy about.
Anyway another eventful day :) I found a 7things (or people) to be happy about.
1. I don't want to brag but
HAHAH beat that!
2. I have such wonderful friends: Angel Melissa Jing Jing Eliza, who have been really great especially Jing who is always there to provide tissues and Angel, flying down whenever I need someone to sit with me.
3. Haiqal who never fails to make my school day less boring.
4. An awesome daddy who sent me a really touching message last week that made me cry.
5. An amazing mommy who packs my lunchbox every day.
6. __ Blast ^^
7. The fact that I haven't gotten bitten by a mosquito in AGES,
8. and finally You. Hope we won't drift anymore
4. An awesome daddy who sent me a really touching message last week that made me cry.
5. An amazing mommy who packs my lunchbox every day.
6. __ Blast ^^
7. The fact that I haven't gotten bitten by a mosquito in AGES,
8. and finally You. Hope we won't drift anymore
All right Imma go sleep practice again tomorrow he he heh! Eyecandyyyy okay kidding omg I high kthxbye!
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Nov. 19th, 2009 | 11:33 pm
mood: sore
This week has been Grow-Fat-Week. The official first and only the last, hopefully ): I have a little book where I record everything I eat but this week is .. Sigh.
Anyway I have been really busy with dance, the company is enjoyable. Felt slightly stressed over the timings today though, I don't know why.
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Okay I am off to bed. I have something to look forward to tomorrow, finally :)
Promises?
Anyway I have been really busy with dance, the company is enjoyable. Felt slightly stressed over the timings today though, I don't know why.
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Okay I am off to bed. I have something to look forward to tomorrow, finally :)
Promises?
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Not the same way I want you
Nov. 16th, 2009 | 10:25 pm
mood: disoriented
It took me such a long time to figure this out, when it was breathing into my face all along.
At least now I am sure what not to lean on :)
YAY STUDY HARDER EUPHORIA!
At least now I am sure what not to lean on :)
YAY STUDY HARDER EUPHORIA!
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Did I mention I hate waterproof mascara?
Nov. 14th, 2009 | 11:35 pm
mood: sad
Road show @ Orchard just now. I peeled off my face to act like a mad bitch. HAHA actually no it wasn't that terrifying. But because of dance rehearsals I'm missing dinner all the time. Kinda loving it I hope, if I don't lose weight then :@ I will post the pics when I get them.
Fuggingtired gna crash. Nightz!
Everyone makes mistakes, mine was to be too dependent.
Fuggingtired gna crash. Nightz!
Everyone makes mistakes, mine was to be too dependent.
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Different
Nov. 13th, 2009 | 04:55 am
mood: fshagged
I am so tired. Have to finish my I & R before presentation. Everyone has been so busy, I haven't seen Eliza or talked to her properly the whole week. Every day has been PW, PW shit, skip lessons for PW, skip lessons regardless of PW, then dance practice and home.
I really can't wait for the freedom to come. But we'd be getting results back next week ahmygad. A few days ago I faced hell about my results >:( I just hope it all goes well. As for dance practices, I hurt my back and shoulder HAHA. Oh well whatever I don't expect nothing less.
Take it all in to swallow.
I really can't wait for the freedom to come. But we'd be getting results back next week ahmygad. A few days ago I faced hell about my results >:( I just hope it all goes well. As for dance practices, I hurt my back and shoulder HAHA. Oh well whatever I don't expect nothing less.
Take it all in to swallow.
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Nov. 10th, 2009 | 09:25 pm
mood: disappointed
What's up with the boys and their Bros before Hoes shit.
Anyway Jing, Darren and I gna take part in Rp's dance concert :) Omgah I am so scared HAHAH shuddup Euphoria. Ok chowowsai ^^
Hmm a lot of things don't matter anymore :)
Anyway Jing, Darren and I gna take part in Rp's dance concert :) Omgah I am so scared HAHAH shuddup Euphoria. Ok chowowsai ^^
Hmm a lot of things don't matter anymore :)
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Nov. 9th, 2009 | 09:19 am
location: Econs class
mood: 
Fat
Jean was over at my place on Saturday! We watched Taken. Fantastic movie really. Heart touching too. Headed to town to meet the girls, I saw a top I LOVE >:(
Sunday was spent on Dan, Eliza, Bruce and the other guys. Reached home with a fever, ahmygad. I need to really recover lah.
Kbye.